Please do not turn your back on salvation when once you become aware of it and what it brings you. You will not find happiness here, you will not. You may continue to seek it where it is not, but you will find only frustration and disappointment. All things of this world will pass away, all accomplishments and honors will become as ashes, leaving only their bitter taste in the end.
Remember within every situation, you are either defensively reacting to it or patiently learning from it!
The essential learning is through your inner intention.
Every moment that is truly given to gratitude, kindness, honesty, and humility will become the blessings that you count on through every situation.
Do not worry about what to say or do, because the Grace of God will guide you in every moment.