There is no more effective way to begin to free yourself from the egoic misidentification and its consequences than to turn over decision making to the Holy Spirit.
This is what is meant by surrender.
You have relied on the ego as your guide and identity for too long, and it has cost you dearly in sorrow and torment.
The most effective way to withdraw your egoic allegiance is to turn your life over to the Guide God has given you.
He will not fail to lead you out of the trap you have made and back to freedom in God.
Can you surrender to the Higher Power?
That is the important question.