If you could make a choice right here and now that would end pain and sorrow forever, would you?
The sane answer to this question would be yes, yet the ego bound mind can seldom respond in a straightforward and uncomplicated manner.
The ego, always suspicious of what is offered, insists on controlling every decision, and censoring always what would enter the mind.
Do not listen to the ego.
You have chosen it as your guide by the act of identifying with a body.
Through your obvious experience of separation, you have come to identify with the belief in separateness that holds the center of your mind and the whole thought system that arises from it.
The ego, the personification of this thought system, is suspicious of everyone and everything, for it believes danger surrounds it and attack will come at any moment.
The only thing that can be done with the ego and the thought system of separation, is to let it be undone with the help of the Holy Spirit, that Reality may be revealed to you.