There is no need to learn through pain.
And gentle lessons are acquired joyously and are remembered gladly.
What gives you happiness you want to learn and not forget.
It is not this you would deny.
Your question is whether the means by which you learn this gentle teaching will bring to you the joy it promises.
If you believed it would, the learning of it would be no problem.
You are not happy learners yet because you still remain uncertain that vision gives you more than judgment does, and you have learned that both you cannot have.